Weight...what?!

Ok, so I thought I'd share some embarrassing moments in regards to my weight...well, since my dad died, I blame my weight gain on the stress...sure, while most ppl lose weight with stress, I on the other hand, gain...(all in my GUT)...because my 'comfort' is to eat!  Can you blame me?  Do you know how much FOOD ppl brought over to my mom's when my dad was dying...I felt it was the right thing to do...ya know, EAT it...!!  Now I do occassionally excercise on my ellyptical and just recently as of January, started 2 days/week back to the gym....but I must say, nothing is working...and ultimately, I've gained! 

I have had some discomfort behind my left knee the past few mos, and noticed swelling, so I went to the doc yesterday...as you know, they always weigh you and take your BP...typical stuff.  I used to ALWAYS take my shoes/jacket off before I ever stepped on a scale, but this day, I chose to NOT...because what's the point, I knew I gained...but I'm here for my KNEE, so who cares...

So, the doc comes in, looks over my past paperwork, and FIRST thing out of her mouth is:
"I see the last time you were here was for your kidney infection follow up back in Jan 2011...and you have gained 8.5 lbs since then..."  She stops and just STARES at me...errr, ok, gosh, am I OBESE or something...are we really going to point THIS out...I was 116 then and now I'm 124.5 now...gee I thought I was a 'healthy' weight some might say...I wanted to go into how I had a crappy year with my dad dying, and my aunt dying, and 2 close friend's dads dying...but instead I just mumbled..."uh, yeah, I'm trying to diet..."  And she proceeded to talk about my knee after that...but too late, in MY head I'm already on a spiral downward on my weight and I sort of lost focus about my knee (which, btw, is cyst called Bakers Cyst, which has to be drained) OH JOY!

But let me back you up here...just 10 days earlier, my 6 yo asked me "mommy are you having another baby?"...I said "'no, why?"....she said "because your belly is FAT"...I kid you NOT, exact words,....I literally went to my bed and cried...she didn't mean to hurt my feelings but she said exactly what she thought...sigh...so, there you go...my DRAMA...I can't escape it!  So when you see me in big tee shirts, you'll know why...lol